Nothingness

Nikki felt like it had been going on for hours. She didn’t know how long it had really been but she knew that her shoulders ached, her knees were raw, her neck felt like it was in a steel clamp, her asshole felt distended, and her jaw was numb. She wasn’t even sure whose cock was in her mouth. They had been passing her back and forth, letting her get them nice and aroused, and then pulling her head off and pushing her to the other one.

At some point, they had bound her hands behind her back with a necktie. She could feel the fabric bunching up, soft and silky, hanging down below the knot. The position pulled her arms back, stretching her shoulders painfully. It also made it hard for her to keep her balance as she was pushed from one brother to the other. A couple of times she had fallen and had to struggle to get back up, using only her side and her shoulder for leverage.

They had also pushed a silicone butt plug into Nikki’s anus. It was long, wide at the base, with three ball shaped protuberances. She knew exactly what it was shaped like because Luca had pushed it into her mouth first. She knew she should have been grateful he had put it in her mouth, after all that had added lubrication. But it had also pushed her jaw unnaturally wide, and made it all the easier for her to be as sore as she was now.

Whoever it was, the man whose cock was in her, was really getting into it. She had been sucking and licking, using her stomach muscles to slide her head up and down, while he sat back and chatted with his brother. But now he held her head in both hands, grabbing fistfuls of hair, and thrusting up into her. She was grateful. At least she could relax her neck into his hands, even if his cock was now blocking her airway. He pushed deeper, hitting the back of her throat. She could feel the bitterness of his pre-cum, rather than tasting it.

She wanted this to be over. Wanted him to cum in her throat just for the relief of it being over. She tried to entice him with her lips and her tongue. She ran her tongue along the bottom of his shaft, pushing it across the vein, adding pressure. She also held her lips tight as he thrust, increasing the friction and hopefully intensifying his pleasure. She just wanted him to cum. Felt like her whole body was focused on getting him to cum. Her back hunched, her stomach tight, she could feel the plug in her ass, as she clenched all her muscles, supporting her body and allowing him to move her up and down on his cock.

She felt him getting more intense. Felt the little fluttering feeling of the cum welling up. He was going to cum! Hallelujah. It really did feel like a miracle. She wanted it so much. Just wanted to succeed. Wanted to make this happen. Wanted to feel the climax, and wanted to relax on the other side. Thought that maybe they’d give her a little break if she made him cum.

“BORIS!” It must have been Boris’ cock in there. Luca was yelling at him. He said something more, harsh and angry, in Serbian.

Nikki felt hands on her shoulders. Luca was pulling her off Boris. He wasn’t going to let Boris cum. Oh NO! He was going to make Boris come down from this peak. Was going to make her start over again. She felt the tears welling in her eyes, she wasn’t sure if they were tears of pain (her shoulders, her knees, her stomach muscles, her anus), or tears of frustration, or tears of oxygen deprivation.

Luca pulled her by the collar over to his chair, took her head in both hands and pushed his cock towards her. She knew what she was supposed to do. She opened her mouth. The nerves in her jaw firing in protest. Her jaw cracking and clicking. But she opened her mouth as wide as she could and reached her neck forward for his cock.

But Luca wasn’t going to let her have it that easily. He let go of her head, so she was suspending herself using only her exhausted stomach muscles, reaching for his cock. He held it in his hand and pushed it away from her, then pushed it back towards her face. Then he was hitting her in the face with his cock, laughing as he slapped her with it, pre-cum oozing onto her cheek. She was moving her neck, trying to capture his cock in her mouth, knowing that the only way she was going to succeed, the only way she was going to get any rest, was to make them both cum.

Oh how Nikki wanted to make them cum. Wanted to succeed. She knew she could, knew she WOULD. She had yet to be given a task she couldn’t handle. She had held Mark off in the woods. She had accepted Charles’ beating. She had sucked every cock, fucked every guy, licked every pussy. She was a slave, yes. But she was a winner. She rose to every challenge and she would rise to this one.

She redoubled her energy. She would suck Luca. She would get him so hot, he wouldn’t be able to stand it. She would make him cum. She would MAKE him cum. She would.

Finally, Luca let her have his cock in her mouth. She was in an awkward position, trying to balance on her sore knees, moving her head. But she wanted to give him the full experience of a blow job, the way she had been trained to do it. Using her whole mouth, taking him in deep, letting him feel the heat and the wetness of her. Making sure he felt her eagerness, felt it in her lips and in her tongue. Stimulating as much of his cock as she could. She wished she could use her hands, hold the base of his cock with one hand as she slid up and down on his shaft, but she did the best she could.

And he was getting more aroused. She could feel it. He was so hard. Huge and hard, in her mouth. Deep. Now he was thrusting his hips forward, meeting her motions – as she slid her head down, he pushed his hips up; as she slid her head back up, he pulled his hips down further, leaving just the head of his cock in her mouth. She felt the swollen ridge of his head just inside her mouth, resting against the inside of her lips. And then she felt it pushing deep into her mouth, into her throat.

Luca had more discipline than Boris. He stopped well before she felt anything close to the rumble of cum. All she felt was him pulling her head back, ripping her mouth off his cock. Was this ever going to end? Were they ever going to let her pleasure them? It was like purgatory, a hellish purgatory – always sucking but never swallowing! Was that like Narnia under the evil spell of the White Witch, where it was always winter but never Christmas?

Luca held her head away from his body. But she pushed against him. Tried to move forward, tried to capture him again in her mouth. Desperate. She struggled against him, a little voice in the back of her head trying to remind her to submit, submit even to this frustration. But she couldn’t, she had to succeed. Had to make him cum.

Luca laughed. Said something to Boris. Clearly making fun of her, her desire to please them. But then he let her move her head forward, have another taste of his cock. It was obvious they liked this. They wanted her to do her best, to get them to orgasm.

Nikki tried harder. Started sucking again. Luca had backed away a bit from his orgasm, so it was like starting over. Not starting all the way over – he was hard – but certainly not starting from where she left off. She closed her lips around his cock. Sucked as hard as she could, pulling him deeper into her. She heard him moan, and she felt a deep satisfaction. At least he was enjoying this. She sped up, moved her head faster up and down his shaft.

Again he pushed her head back. His cock left her mouth with a loud popping sound and both brothers laughed again. They were obviously finding this funny. Nikki didn’t see anything funny about it at all. She just wanted to make them cum. She had never had to work so hard. She was exhausted. Her thighs were shaking, her ass clenching around the plug as she tried to hold herself upright.

Luca pushed her head further back, she was leaning back on her heels now, precariously balanced, her center of gravity off because of her hands being behind her back. And then she felt Boris. He was behind her and he reached out his left hand and pushed her left side. Just a little. But it was enough to knock her down.

Nikki struggled back up, so she could put her mouth back on Luca’s cock. She wanted it. Wanted to succeed. Wanted to win. She thought back to the woods, she’d been able to do it there, she could do it here. And she summoned all her energy.

She had just gotten upright again, and Boris pushed her right side with his right hand and she went down again, to the other side. This time harder. She felt her hip bone hit into the floor with a crack. A jolt of pain went down her leg. It wasn’t broken, but it was like hitting your elbow, your “funny bone”, the sensation radiated out and took her breath away.

“Up!” Obviously Luca knew a few words of English. Nikki realized this was the first time he had addressed her directly. He was ordering her to get back up. She had to do it. She knew she could. She reached deep into herself and rotated to the left, literally pushing up off her face, her weight on her knees now, her ass in the air, aware of the butt plug holding her anus open. She could feel it shifting inside her, could feel the shape of it, the bulb like thicker spots holding her open. She rounded up, articulating her spine, and getting back to a kneeling position.

This time Boris let her lean forward towards Luca’s cock before he pushed her down again. Nikki was fiercely determined. She was going to get up. But she was so exhausted. She was still tired from running in the woods, and from the tension of the party the night before. That had been a late night and she hadn’t gotten a whole lot of sleep. Hadn’t even gotten a real nap.

Nikki pushed herself onto her knees and her forehead. She could feel all her stomach muscles working to try to pull her upright. Her shoulders pulling against the bonds, aching.

“Up!” Luca was yelling again. He added something in Serbian that didn’t sound pretty. He was disappointed.

Nikki couldn’t take disappointing him. She had to succeed at this task. Mark was counting on her. He believed in her. He had told her he did. She gritted her teeth, tightened down her stomach, squeezed her glutes (despite the discomfort of the plug), and pulled herself upright. She had made it!

And Luca’s cock was right there. Tantalizingly close. Nikki leaned forward, opened her mouth, and tried to get it in. But it required a lot of stomach strength to lean forward like that, and she had just used the last reserves of her stomach muscles. She slid forward, lost control, and hit the floor yet again.

Now there was nothing left. She couldn’t get up. She had given everything she had the last time. She was lost. Hopeless. She felt a hot rush of nerves, in her bowels, in her cunt. The same feeling she felt when she was late to an important meeting, or unable to complete a work task in time.

“Up!” Luca was roaring now. His huge frame vibrating with emotion. He wanted her to get back up, and now.

She tried. Really tried. Started to rotate to the side, tried to get up on her knees. But she couldn’t. There was nothing left. She could barely move, barely breathe.

Nikki started to sob. She was a failure. She wasn’t going to please Mark this time. She had a simple enough task. Pleasure these two guys with her mouth. But she hadn’t been able to do it.

She was sobbing in earnest now. Tears running down her face. Her body convulsing. Gasping for breath. She was on her side and had curled her knees up in as close an approximation of the fetal position as possible with your hands tied behind your back. She felt despair welling up from inside her. Dark and horrible.

Nikki wasn’t used to failing. She had always been a good student. A good employee. A good daughter. A good friend. She had used achievement to cover over any feelings of inadequacy or insecurity. Working harder, following instructions, doing what she was told. That always made her feel better.

Now she had failed. She couldn’t even sit up. She was just a loser. She had lost. And Mark was never going to forgive her. She would no longer be a Mark Gold slave.

Her sobs were huge now. Wracking her body. Filling the room. There was nothing she could do, she might as well lose herself in this despair.

Luca kicked her. Tried to get her up that way. But she couldn’t do anything but sob at this point. Tears were running down her face. Snot flowing from her nose. Her hair matted to her head. She was a mess.

The brothers looked down at her. This was exactly what they had wanted. They had broken her. She had come in to the evaluation a proud slave. Sure she could tackle any challenge. Confident. And now look at her. Sobbing. Shattered. Reduced to a huddling mass. They had set out to show her she was nothing but what they wanted her to be. And they could see she had learned her lesson. It was remarkable. And they commented to each other on it. What a beautiful thing it was to see.

She could vaguely hear that Luca and Boris were talking to each other. Mostly her head was filled with her own sobs. She felt someone roll her on her belly and untie her arms. The relief was incredible, but she could barely feel it, it felt like it was happening at a distance. She was just empty.

Then she felt the plug being moved in her ass. One of the Serbs had it and was tugging it, pulling it free. She felt the first bubble move out of her anus, the second, the third. Now it was sliding free with a sucking noise.

Nikki felt like a rag doll. She was just floppy and empty now. Still sobbing, softly. Hiccoughing every once in a while. But allowing herself to be manipulated, her body positioned just how they wanted it. She was beyond caring. She was just emptiness. She didn’t resist at all as they moved her. They could do whatever they wanted to her, she was still a failure. They were putting her on her back, on the floor. Positioning her carefully, the way they wanted.

Now Boris was straddling her chest, his cock and balls filling her vision. Oh! He was going to fuck her face. She didn’t have to do anything, he was just going to take her. Relief washed over her. She didn’t need to do anything. He was going to do it all. She was just as relieved as she felt Luca spread her legs open and push them back, holding them in his hands, as she felt him enter her.

Nikki felt them moving on her. Penetrating her at both ends. Boris’ cock huge in her mouth, Luca filling her cunt. They were moving in rhythm, feeling like they were going to meet in the middle, fill her completely.

They couldn’t be that displeased with her if they were using her this way. She wasn’t completely useless, worthless, pathetic. She could still receive them. Still accept their cocks into her body. This was what she was reduced to, an empty receptacle. Even her skill rejected, used until it was completely exhausted, used until she was nothing. Not her mind, not her knowledge, not her verbal skill, but now not even her sexual skill. She was nothing but a set of holes that could be filled with cock, used as they wanted, taken, played with, and fucked, as they wanted.

She let the feeling of helplessness, of nothingness, wash over her, flow through her. She was nothing. Fully, completely, genuinely, nothing. She realized that was the goal of this exercise. That had been their intent all along. They had purposely reduced her to nothingness. She felt the lesson. Heard the lesson. And learned the lesson.

Nikki felt the Serbs quicken. Their desire building in sync. Fucking her face, fucking her cunt. Filling her. They still wanted her. Wanted her, even as nothing. She felt the comfort of that as the exhaustion washed over her.

First Boris came, shooting a huge load of cum in waves into her mouth. Almost immediately, Luca came too, his cum shooting up into her. She felt the heat of it, of being filled with their fluids. It was almost too much. Her body bruised and aching, her muscles strained.

Both brothers pulled out. Boris wiped his cock on her hair, Luca on her belly. They picked her up under the shoulders and marched her out the door to the hallway. Then they let go. Nikki collapsed to the floor, her body unable to even hold her weight up. Boris leaned over and pushed something into her mouth. It was the butt plug, soft and squishy, the round protuberances strange in her mouth. Nikki was glad Mark had cleaned her so thoroughly.

The brothers left her there. Like a used room service tray. She was too tired to care. She closed her eyes, and let her body drift off into sleep, huddled naked in the hallway, alone. Hoping that the cum settling in her stomach and dripping from her cunt was proof enough that she was a good slave.